It is marvelous how we change!
After you quit, I could not bear
the enormity of your absence
beside me as I slept.
Your not-body roared
with fever scorching skin
I could have fried an egg
on your empty pillow.
Opposite me your not-body
took so much space, spread
like a flayed fish stinking
to the highest heavens.
Grabbed by your not-body the blankets
left me folded in on myself,
small shivers never enough
to keep me warm or protected
as your not-body flailed
through the night madly
your not-arms into my face, stunning
even the brightest of moons.
Eventually,
though I felt my decisiveness cruel
I evicted your not-body.
That ghost slipped out
through a crack in the window
and through the front door a parade
of all my belongings
re-announced their preciousness,
stomping and hollering and beating
like a living heart.
I filled this house
After you quit, I could not bear
the enormity of your absence
beside me as I slept.
Your not-body roared
with fever scorching skin
I could have fried an egg
on your empty pillow.
Opposite me your not-body
took so much space, spread
like a flayed fish stinking
to the highest heavens.
Grabbed by your not-body the blankets
left me folded in on myself,
small shivers never enough
to keep me warm or protected
as your not-body flailed
through the night madly
your not-arms into my face, stunning
even the brightest of moons.
Eventually,
though I felt my decisiveness cruel
I evicted your not-body.
That ghost slipped out
through a crack in the window
and through the front door a parade
of all my belongings
re-announced their preciousness,
stomping and hollering and beating
like a living heart.
I filled this house
with the lush design of my dreams.
And I did dream!
And I did wake from those dreams,
resuscitated by the paradox
of your not-body and my body
existing in a future I could squint at,
like a ferry on the horizon
a speck in blue
coming home.
And I did dream!
And I did wake from those dreams,
resuscitated by the paradox
of your not-body and my body
existing in a future I could squint at,
like a ferry on the horizon
a speck in blue
coming home.
i adore the way you've used "not-body" <3333
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