just do it

prologue

attempting to love something 

into functioning

ain't it

1.

i will survive this night

just like last

i'm actually feeling somewhat tortured

which i thought contained erode,

but only rot, rotted, red

red rot is hot

but not wholly healthy

no, not at all

2.

i see 

angelina jolie's face

in my lace curtain

smoking a cigarette,

she's here, then gone,

then here

lush lips rebellious

in their sensuality disarmingly present

3.

i feel trapped

that i can't be with you

more fully really feel you

in my hands

i fell in love through letters

once before

and it got me into

Big Trouble

4.

this is different

and still i feel the tension

in my chest, of doing

something i know

isn't good for me

is it worth it to go further

set up a zoom date

experiment with other

connections?

we both know

what you are

and are not able to offer

5.

you know (i know)

what you (i)

have to do

be like mike,

(20/23!)

just do it!