By Example

It doesn't mean I 

need to show anything

or do anything,

I just actively need to not seem

I'm actively doing nothing

- Ross shared a podcast

and the host kindly asked

if I immediately thought 

of people I know as he

broke down transactional

analysis and I did and

felt such shame for 

writing the world, this

rotating cast on the

back of my hand - I also

thought of myself my

perennial shrug how I could

flay the skin off that same

hand and whittle those tiny

bones to so many tiny shards:

death by a thousand careless

pinpricks, is this needlessly

keeping me young I 

feel such rage towards the young

and compassion too:

they just keep on walking

straight into the traps

we laid for them

it is infuriating and

heartbreaking.