phase phrase

All phases of life at once
out the window 
I fear

the man who walks too slow

until I see the bucket hat bobbing

a tick behind,

an elder, a mother or

client. Or friend?

Are we still in the early phase

of friends? I was alive

when my parents lost theirs

and they were not young

when I was born.


a rose is

a floating thing my
name does not take as it once
did, i miss it's catch

The Raspberry Jam 1/10/23

I am, finally, just like my mother.

Coffee carries water and I don't eat

until noon. We wear our bangs the

same, thinned and fanned out like

a brown parasol. Just an egg, please.

Toast, sure. The raspberry jam. The

sunny spot, I click red nails to key-

board, I care enough but very little. 

I flick the curl from my eye, I wear

glasses. When I think about death,

I don't fear my own. It's others; I don't

want to miss you. I want to be a family

with long summers and warm mornings

the house plants growing, the evenings

full of hot winds. When I think of

my life, I think of my mother, would

she smile knowing how much and 

how little I care? How changed I am,

and yet, the same, the same, as every 

iteration of us, every evolution surely,

graciously became. Mama says we 

all have the same eyes, she says sisters

are like leaves on a tree.

vacation sedona

 

a consequence

of the full cratered moon

a wolf in the residential

zone of vortexes

crystals gusts

from the red rock basin

raise the lantern 

dusk as ritual

self actualization of light

as coyote giggles

echo small balls

of predatory mindfulness 

ricochets implications 

of indigeneity

the medicine woman

statues canyons names

layered with sedimentary

q’s l’s h’s

geology of wellness

reveals a desert

qualish way we prance

through vulnerability

with our little hats

rest our tired hands

on opuntia cacti

rust our tired pants

on blood colored dirt

Sit With Me

Just sit, don't fade away,
re-skin ourselves in the front room
or on the same couch in a Hovis field,
watching the wheat busy in wind,
or eyes twitching as a pocket burns,
the flow of information has
become excellent,
or cheers-ing Cup-A-Soup
outside some car place,
or round the back of a takeaway,
but sit, won't you, sit?


 

TMSIATOYOI

i wrote a poem when i was 7 
about everything i loved 

dotted computer glyph 
i called it:

The Morning Star
Is A Treasure 
Of Your Own Imagination

so certain,
of everything i loved,

my cat Bo Bo, sweet rice crackers
wrapped in seaweed, the curling poster
of children pushing a wagon sized tomato
on the wall

belonging to myself,
the poem
the place

cozy snail's shell adorned
with billions of pin holes,

glow in the dark green
flooding the edge's
edge


KEEP GIVING

curl up in an anti thought let it hum you 
sleepless, dreaming of a parsley farm 
blood like a message, real deal
face upside down in the mirror 
have you ever actually known? 

when i couldn't think about soft looks
without crying, connection ache
for sun, for baby animals, for the imprint of food
you set before me, powerless pleasure, 
steam in the shower, 
herbs of the earth

feeling this love as much as 
recalling not feeling 
this love, 

body of ocean,

and lightening

now practice reaching 
across yourself


orlando bloom

where would i be without florida at

a houston’s in fort lauderdale twisting 

heads off spiny 

lobsters discovering my sexuality

in people 

magazines asking questions

are flamingos 

real is swimming in a sunshower

are nightfuls of crocodile 

leather iguanas on red tile

it’s alligators

stupid iguanas ride elevators

in the sawgrass 

mills mall half price tuesdays

half pepperoni at the rainforest

cafe when i grow up

i’ll have a wet bed

covered in bananas

lost at the flea market

in a bedazzled sea of black

dungarees riding the go karts

in publix grabbing every coupon

taking the 3 hour tour 

getting lost in tv land

with a half gallon of breyer’s

a sunburn that peels pink

as coconut scent

soap in the toilet

of a jai alai gambling

facility it's easy

as a cupped hand

empty as a pelican’s bill

 

 i finally caught covid

a word we can't see or feel anymore

i feel bitter bummed foggy and achy

and sad sad sad sad sad


Andy

the memory 

that begs 

words now

is my brother 

in the swimming 

pool many pools 

many summers 

we had some 

fascination with 

the circus so i 

was the leader 

or ringmaster, 

nameless and 

he was the star

fashioned a 

title for himself : 

Baby Jelly to 

ring of things 

soft and young 

and sweet i'll 

let the recall 

sit there, before 

it puckered with

power and time 

i can keep 

it in the water, 

choreo for jumps 

and dives we 

had to add 

the drama with 

imagination since

nothing close to 

impressive was 

materializing but 

we stuck it 

out and i 

insisted we 

practice repeatedly 

in case someone

wanted to watch

our sibling show

from the edge

maybe dangle ankles

and applaud for

our sweet dance

that we chose

to make 

together 

Wood

The last car door slammed
and the chuckle of tire on
gravel let out a final ha
and then we were what 
now and if I had memorised
the list I would have known
a year like this would soon
come around, where we
should give each other wood
to commemorate the roots we've
put down or all the excess wood
that now houses a child in 
what was a guest room and
speaking of roots, the sewage
line is most likely full of them
I must get that sorted, wait,
what, now?



A Preponderance of Snow

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Productive Day

 Scanner light, exit through the weird door, scanner groan, go on home. 

Useful am I, scanner so bright, an image to see whenever you like. 

I am become bus person.

I am not the most successful person. 

Scanner sing, imaging. 


I dispense love wisdom 
while perched under a wool blanket
only slippered-feet and hatted-head 
sticking out
staring at the corner
to pluck strands from
the hazy web of the past
and give them a home
on this plate

white lily

Nighthawks, Chianti and the moon

keep me and my mother company

settled rigidly side by side

books brought but unread

praying for companionship

sharing a plate of cut fruit 

laid out on the brick patio

Guilt as a goddess lounges near

wringing both her hands 

she refills our glasses 

red and ceremonious, quaffed 

we swoop in and out

admiration and bafflement

isolated in our search to love the other 

between us a heavy vase bears a white lily

the shadows move as they always do